I have been overwhelmed by all the Facebook posts I've seen this week about the Dateline special "The Boy From Baby House 10". The posts say that it is a moving piece that will jerk at your heart strings...you will cry your eyes out.
As I am intrigued, I'm avoiding it like the plague.
Why?
Is this a normal process that I'm going through? It doesn't seem like it. Seems like every other adoptive parent that I know watched this and was forever moved by it. I can't. I just can't right now. I'm not strong enough. It's just too fresh in my mind. Although I feel terrible for even admitting this... Right now, it's just easier for me to stay in a bubble. A "Happy Adoption Stories Only Bubble". I can't think about all the orphans around the world, near and far. I just can't. I want to. I want to help. I want to advocate. I want to make a difference. But I just can't right now and I don't know why.
I think that's 120% fine Cortney! I have gone through that phase as well. I'm sure many of us adoptive moms will go through seasons when we need to retract a little bit and just dwell on positive things.
ReplyDeleteCortney, I agree with Kari...it's fine! You really haven't been home with Ry for very long. I'm sure you're busy with all of the adjustments of welcoming Ryland to your home, falling in love with eachother, and recovering from a very challenging journey. Relax and enjoy...the wave of consciousness will likely hit you eventually and then you'll act as you're able. Quaintance
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